Vague Recollections of a Future Life

Voices lifted high in renewed worship,
Washed clean after another turning of the cycle,
Grace extended and received,
Gentle touches, reassurances of love,
Home is found in the darkest corners of the world,
When hearts are joined and lifted high before the King,
Return.  

Attack from the outside
Where is it from?
Walls crumbling inside
What happened to staying strong?

I’m baffled, confused,
Struck down on every side.
What is the reason?
What is the cause?
That I find myself admist broken walls?

Attack from the inside
Where is it from?
Tears streaming from my eyes,
Why can’t I feel numb?

I’m baffled, confused,
Struck down on every side.
What is the reason?
What is the cause?
That I find myself admist broken walls?

Walking around empty,
Face blank from emotion,
People reach out, I turn them away.
Unsure of my motives…

I’m baffled, confused,
Struck down on every side.
What is the reason?
What is the cause?
That I find myself admist broken walls? 

At an altitude so high, 
The stars in reach, yet beyond me,
The heavens so close,
Yet only reachable by the way all me go,
Death.

This suspension in space,
It has me floating in wonder,
Curious as to your works,
Awe inspired to your glory that I can only help but praise
You.

Held aloft in the sky by more
than just science,
More than just the contrivaties
Of man’s own foolish
Designs. 

Your hand undergirds us,
Supports and upholds us,
Causes us to fly on the wings
Of these metalic creatures…
Trapped…?

For in this false sense of freedom
We are dependent on flaw-filled man,
Have we placed our trust in
The Great Pilot?
The One who truly flies o’re mens’
Fates?

Father, guide our weary traveling
Into your arms of rest,
Strengthen and deliver us
To that place of Everlasting
Blessedness. 

Gangly legs
Fuzzy hair
Newborn tinyness
Run, Filly, Run.
Wild bright eyes
Spirit soaring high
Uncommon fiestiness
Run, Filly, Run.

They hunt, they scream,
They try so hard to tame,
They whip, they lash,
They try so hard to dash
Your spirits….

I say, Run, Filly, Run.

Never let them catch you
Never stoop down low
Fly with the speed you’ve been given
Fly to the sea

I say, Run, Filly, Run.

They hunt, they scream,
They try so hard to tame,
They whip, they lash,
They try so hard to dash
Your spirits…

I say:
Run, Filly, Run.
Run, Filly, Run.
Fly on the sea.
Run, Filly, Run.
Run wild, beautiful, free.
Fly to the sea. 

It feels kinda stalker-ish. Heh. 

Oh. And hello, internet. :D

Don’t worry, I’m coming back. ;)

In four hours we leave for the airport. Our flight is around 9 tonight. And as I prepare my heart and mind for the days ahead, I can’t help but be overwhelmed by a deep sense of joy at what God has done. 

There are no words. 

So as of Monday I will have the incredible opportunity to spend a month in Brasil as part of my Internal Experience with the gap year program I attend in GA. 

Thank you all so much for the prayers you have laid before the Father. I ask that you continue to pray for myself and our team of 30 other students plus staff as we head out Monday night and the rest of the time following. 

I’ll get occasional internet usage, but assume that I won’t be posting here for a LONG TIME. 

HOWEVER. I am in charge of the blog for my half of the team and you can follow along with all our adventures here! 

I won’t have my phone with me, but you are welcome to flood my inbox with messages and texts! 

So thank you guys for all your thoughts and prayers. I love you all. 

Ever in Him.

Janae

”..and at your cross, I lay my burdens, at your feet where your love covers, all I’ve done. Now I walk with you, Lord..”